Just trying to get my head around the fact that tomorrow is my last day at Pictage. It’s been such an integral part of my life for the last 2 years. Getting that job just a few months post op really made a difference to me. I love the people there with really just 2 exceptions! I feel like I fostered such good relationships with so many in so many departments and their smiling faces and jokes that I get to enjoy daily…those are all coming to an end. I imagine coming home from work tomorrow feeling a bit directionless and lonely. Sad and lost. Having a party on Saturday where many guests will be from work helps with the finality, but somehow I feel like happy hour would be in order tomorrow. I don’t really want to ask other people to go out with me for my own happy hour – especially with a party on Saturday (which is my birthday get together I guess). Plus there’s a lot to do to get stuff ready for Saturday’s shin-dig.
This new job is exciting for me, I am really not sure what to expect for the first few weeks. I have a training schedule but it involves a lot of “ride-alongs” with other sales reps and I can’t quite picture those yet either. I trust that the camaraderie I enjoyed at Pictage was not a fluke or accident but something I was able to create and therefore can hopefully create in the new place. I won’t be in the office daily 9-5 and will eventually only be in once a week, I still believe I can build connections with others. That is so much of what makes me tick and what leaves me feeling satisfied. I’m a people person, what can I say?
So tonight I am grateful. Grateful for the warm birthday wishes I had, the beautiful flowers Kelly put on my desk before I got in, the lovely gifts and shout outs I’ve had today. I’m excited for the future, my games party on Saturday. I’m sad about saying goodbye to so many people tomorrow – the employees but also all the photographers I know through my job. And lastly I feel sleepy. I believe things work out. They may not be pre-ordained (not sure about “fate”) but I believe all of this is for my highest good and even through tears tomorrow, I’ll try to remember that.